Yesterday I was having one of those days that wasn't outrageously annoying, on the one hand, or outstanding, on the other hand. I'm finding that I'm having more and more days like this. They weigh on me. I'm not overly excited about anything, but I'm not overly frustrated either. I'm just kinda blah.
It might be the winter blues, and I certainly blame my job for the double-fisted lack of intellectual stimulation and high emotional investment it requires. But the bottom line is that I have got to stop hating on my job. No matter what happens with PhD programs or anything else, I'm in that job through the end of May at the least. I can't spend the next 113 days complaining about a job that I know--before the day even starts--will include an extended grating of my nerves in some form or fashion. So, I just need to get over it.
I think my problem actually lies in being too motivated. I go into work everyday, and I actually want to do good work. How do you turn off your motivation? I'm trying to redirect all of it to my thesis, but when I am in the office for 8 hours straight, it just creeps up on me. What is a woman to do in these circumstances? I've already got the 15 minutes late thing down...now I think I may try staring at the screen and spacing out like Peter from Office Space.
I think my problem actually lies in being too motivated. I go into work everyday, and I actually want to do good work. How do you turn off your motivation? I'm trying to redirect all of it to my thesis, but when I am in the office for 8 hours straight, it just creeps up on me. What is a woman to do in these circumstances? I've already got the 15 minutes late thing down...now I think I may try staring at the screen and spacing out like Peter from Office Space.
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